So, for the first time in ever I decided I’d actually write something in my blog. And that is what I am doing now, I’m just going to give you bit of a view inside my head, of who I am. And this topic sparked from a conversation I was having with my friend.
I tend to be an over-analytical person in most everything there is. Which is cool, and I like it, and it’s a gift, but sometimes I just wish I wasn’t. I think life is just plain easier when you don’t analyze everything like some people do, including me. I really would like to have someone say something to me, and my reaction would just be “Oh whatever, they can do what they like, that’s just them I don’t care”. And I would also like to blindly follow God without occasionally questioning my faith now and then, but that is a different topic my mind may wander off to in a bit. Needless to say, I am not ignorant, or well, I don’t just let something happen and not think about something.
If somebody does something I question, or sometimes just does something I notice, I think about it. It’s a quirk and sometimes I’m good at it and sometimes I’m not. But I like trying to get in their head and see how they work. It helps in certain situations, I can already know their answer to a question. But I would be much less angry about people in general if I just didn’t care about what they did or how they acted. I care too much. And sometimes I try to do it and sometimes I don’t. People are strange. And they don’t seem strange to themselves, but if you analyze the situation, they definitely do some strange things. I’d like to go into specifics but its hard, I forget about stuff too much, or I just don’t want to talk about it.
As far as analyzing people goes, there are a large amount of ways it can be done. For some people, it can be done purely by their face. Emotion they are putting out, somehow the way they are feeling reacts with their brain to produce a contraction of their face muscles, and its as simple as that. Other people are good at hiding it, actors, liars, people who have had plastic surgery. Then it comes to the eyes, some people can hide their emotion in their face but not their eyes, although most people who can lie with their face can do it with their eyes as well. I think the easiest way to notice someone is by the way they talk. We experience it everyday with sarcasm. But once you get to know someone well enough, you can start to notice inconsistencies. Its hard to explain, but they are there, and some people can hear them.
My personal favorite is body language. You can tell a lot about a person by how they carry themselves. I’m not so familiar with actual terms, like people with a generally low self esteem kind of hunch with their back in an attempt to hide themselves from notice, maybe theres a word but I don’t know it. Or we all know how people walk if they think they are all that. But yeah, there is a lot to be learned in how people walk. Some are very commanding in their presence, I met a guy like that once.
Lastly all I have to say is, think about things. Don’t do whatever it is you do, just because you do it, think about it. Question why you act a certain way, and maybe you’ll find out its really only because you want attention, or you want no attention, or you want people to just hear you. And yeah I’m no hypocrite, I need to do it too. And yeah these are just a bunch of thoughts grouped together in a way I think I can only fully understand, but I’m going to let you read it anyways. Its 12:13 in the morning, and I’m going to bed.
